That is a question I was asked on Monday…..I said “For what??” and it was explained that the question meant, are you ready for the next step? For motherhood? I was a little taken aback…….but I know the answer is YES!!!
Let me back pedal a bit……it’s been a really long time since I’ve written here and that is for a multitude of reasons……..the major one being that we were in a spot where we were sorta in limbo, things had to be taken care of before we could move forward with our ultimate goal.
As a part of determining the exact level of my fertility or infertility I had to have an ultrasound done…….that ultrasound determined I likely had uterine polyp/s. Nothing serious that would impact my health or anything and I’ve likely had them for a long time, but it is something that negatively impacts the success rate of successful insemination. So – I had to have another ultrasound, a saline ultrasound. Yup that was as much fun as sticking burning matches in my own eyes, and this determined I, in fact, did have these silly polyps which would have to be removed. Unfortunately our doctor only works 3 days a week so in between my first ultrasound and the follow-up ultrasound it was a 3 week break, then 4 because it was rescheduled.
That was back in July, then the surgery had to be scheduled which could only happen on August 21st, yup yesterday!! While all this waiting was going on there was really nothing to report here…….except my frustrations at the waiting game, and lets face it, no one wants to hear me bitch 😉
So…….fast forward to today, Wednesday 22 August, 2012, day after the successful polyp removal surgery. I am doing good, not feeling too bad and excited for the next, hopefully much more enjoyable steps in this process!!
Ok….so back to the question. I was explaining to my manager, who is extremely understanding and really wants to know more about the process and what we are going through etc, what the steps would be regarding surgery and such and that is when he asked, “Are you ready?” and my honest reply was, “For what?” He said for the next ‘stage’ – I looked at him for a second, just a short second, and said YES!! I really am ready, I think that I am in a good place to take this next step, I think that our (Jeanna and I) relationship is in an amazing place, and I think that our family and friends support us in our desire to have a family.
I have always wanted to have a child, and part of me wishes it had happened before I was 32, but I know I am glad I waited, waited until I was in the ‘right’ place, until my education was completely done, yes that means I am DONE studying come 9/13/2012, and that I am honestly in a place where I can say I am ready to make my life all about our child…….no longer all about ME!! I believe that my parents made their lives all about us kids and I fully intend on doing the same thing……..I have had my turn and now the time is RIGHT……….bring on MOMMYHOOD! The accomplishment in life I feel will top all others…….I AM SO READY……..WE ARE READY!!!!!!
And for your viewing pleasure…….some fun from the hospital!!
PRE-SURGERY PICTURE.…….(smiling once I found out I would in fact be ‘sleeping’ through the procedure!)
Hanging out just before they wheeled me away!! (rocking the gown and hat!)
POST-SURGERY – still sleepy